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IF YOU WANNA GO, JUST GO!!!

In my life, I never ask anyone to stay. In any context. Apakah itu keluarga, teman, kolega, even the significant other. If you choose to leave, then leave. Itu yang selalu saya katakan kepada mereka. Bahkan saya tidak pernah mengawali pertemanan, approach terlebih dahulu, apalagi sampai meminta kontak. Bukan berarti saya antisosial atau fobia dengan manusia. Dalam prinsip saya, jika kamu ingin mengenal saya lebih dekat, silakan. Saya open dengan semua orang dan dengan semua pengalaman. Tetapi, jika pada waktunya nanti kamu menginginkan untuk pergi, silakan juga. Mungkin kata-kata lebih tepatnya adalah saya tidak ingin terikat dengan manusia, tidak ingin menggantungkan kebahagiaan dari manusia lainnya. Ketika rekan kerja yang paling akrab dengan saya mengatakan bahwa Ia ingin resign, saya hanya mengatakan, “Jika itu membuatmu lebih bahagia, kenapa tidak? Jika tempat barumu jauh lebih baik dari ini, kenapa tidak?” Saya tidak akan memintanya untuk tinggal, walaupun saya akan kehilangan ...
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MY QUARTER LIFE CRISIS

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Hey, long time no see.. Karena kesibukan apoteker yang menyedot waktu dan energi 5 bulan terakhir ini, saya tidak sempat lagi mengupdate blog ini. Well, it doesn't mean saya berhenti menulis. I kept on writing, hanya saja di platform lain, yaitu line, dan jurnal pribadi untuk hal-hal yang sifatnya private haha. Hari ini saya ingin berbicara tentang ketakutan dan kecemasan akan masa depan. Hey, I think, I'm having a condition called 'quarter life crisis'. Yah, fase-fase transisi dari tahap dependen menjadi independen, dalam banyak hal, finansial, decision making, dll. Bad Decision Making Yap, decision making. Sesuatu yang selalu berusaha saya hindari selama ini. I'm too scared to do it. How to explain it? Saya berusaha menganalisis mengapa saya begitu takut melakukannya. Apakah itu karena masalah responsibilitas? Takut diminta mempertanggungjawabkan pilihan hidup saya. Saya ingin orang lain memilihkannya untuk saya, sehingga ada yang akhirnya bisa disa...
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[15 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 12] THE MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO

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"What are your most lookig forward to in the next six months?" Going apothecary's program!!! I missed learning stuffs formally. I missed seating in classroom, become student, get inspirations from lecturers, being busy with never ending task, socialize with many friends. I just wanted to be 'alive', not bored and lonely anymore. Stimulate me, please. Can't wait for august.
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[15 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 11] THING THAT I WOULD NEVER CHANGE

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One thing in myself that I would never change is curiosity. Curiosity will lead me to many experiences that even I've never imagined before. It takes me to another door, another world. It grows a passion to learn and learn. I hope this spirit has never died. But, one thing that I have to cosider: curiosity is like double-edged sword. I almost killed by my own curiosity. I hope I'll be wiser to use this weapon to my advantage.
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[15 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 10] THE MOST EMBARASSING MOMENT

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Pakai bahasa aja ya. Hal paling memalukan yang saya ingat at this moment adalah ketika saya sedang berada di toilet univ X (bukan kampus sendiri). Tiba-tiba saya kebelet pup, dan tidak bisa ditahan, cus langsung ke WC. Jeng-jeng. WC nya crowded. Jadi 1 WC wanita itu ada 3 room, semuanya dipakai dan ada yang mengantre. This is darurat moment, di mana saya yang biasanya jaim sudah menjadi bodo amat karena desakan bowel movement. Yaudah dengan santai plas giliran saya, saya pup. 'Plung'. Super lega. I know something's wrong happen ketika nnge-flush. Flushnya macet. Gak ada gayung atau apapun yang bisa mengumpulkan massa air cukup banyak untuk memberikan tekanan yang cukup besar pada si pup untuk menghilang. Hanya ada selang kecil dengan tekanan rendah. Panic attack!! Mana pasti baunya bisa dibayangkan. Pada akhirnya, I gave up. Saya keluar dan bilang ke orang yang pada antre 'Please jangan dipakai, toiletnya rusak' kemudian menutup pintu toilet yang memang tidak bisa...
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[15 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 9] BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

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Here we go, the 9th day. "Describe the best day of your life to date" The best day of my life? I'm thinking hard now, because I realize that I'm lack of gratitude. Hahaha. Whatever it is, I have to choose. Okay, maybe the best of my life is when I graduated from my university, and got bachelor degree, S.Farm. To finish bachelor degree, I have to conduct an experiment, present the result to examiner lecturer (it called seminar), and pass comprehensive oral examination. It's not easy at all. For several months, I become a researcher, real scientist, where I have to choose topic, design experiment, even design the tools to support my research. At that point, I know that struggle does really exist. Hahaha. Trial-and-error-literally. I failed several times, figuring out what was wrong, modified, then tried again. Til it really worked!!!! Okay, you can read my struggle in other post.  CERITA "INDAHNYA" TUGAS AKHIR I  and  SEMINAR, AKHIR CERITA TUGAS...
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[15 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 8] THE GOOD, THE BAD, AND THE UGLY OF ME

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Can we skip this day? Just kidding haha. Today's challenge is: "Describe 'the good, the bad, and the ugly' of yourself". Why the topic is so general? I mean the scope, please. It is supposed to be my behavior related to other people? Ok, let's just assume it. THE GOOD : I'm interested in human. Human is never stop amazing me. Their mind, their behavior are so adorable, even their uggliest part of them. So, it will always be a pleasure to me when I have to talking to them, face to face. I  will be ready to listening your story, patiently, and passionately. Tell me about evertyhing. Tell me about your beautiful mind. Tell me about your problem. I wish I could help you, as long as you're ready to be helped. I love developing and motivating other too. I became a mentor for several people unofficially, watched them grow, from isolated man to be good leader, from troubled person, be more social, or just tried to quit from addiction. So, if you hav...
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