MY MIND

"What are your most lookig forward to in the next six months?" Going apothecary's program!!! I missed learning stuffs formally. I missed seating in classroom, become student, get inspirations from lecturers, being busy with never ending task, socialize with many friends. I just wanted to be 'alive', not bored and lonely anymore. Stimulate me, please. Can't wait for august.

One thing in myself that I would never change is curiosity. Curiosity will lead me to many experiences that even I've never imagined before. It takes me to another door, another world. It grows a passion to learn and learn. I hope this spirit has never died. But, one thing that I have to cosider: curiosity is like double-edged sword. I almost killed by my own curiosity. I hope I'll be wiser to use this weapon to my advantage.

Pakai bahasa aja ya. Hal paling memalukan yang saya ingat at this moment adalah ketika saya sedang berada di toilet univ X (bukan kampus sendiri). Tiba-tiba saya kebelet pup, dan tidak bisa ditahan, cus langsung ke WC. Jeng-jeng. WC nya crowded. Jadi 1 WC wanita itu ada 3 room, semuanya dipakai dan ada yang mengantre. This is darurat moment, di mana saya yang biasanya jaim sudah menjadi bodo amat karena desakan bowel movement. Yaudah dengan santai plas giliran saya, saya pup. 'Plung'. Super lega. I know something's wrong happen ketika nnge-flush. Flushnya macet. Gak ada gayung atau apapun yang bisa mengumpulkan massa air cukup banyak untuk memberikan tekanan yang cukup besar pada si pup untuk menghilang. Hanya ada selang kecil dengan tekanan rendah. Panic attack!! Mana pasti baunya bisa dibayangkan. Pada akhirnya, I gave up. Saya keluar dan bilang ke orang yang pada antre 'Please jangan dipakai, toiletnya rusak' kemudian menutup pintu toilet yang memang tidak bisa...

Here we go, the 9th day. "Describe the best day of your life to date" The best day of my life? I'm thinking hard now, because I realize that I'm lack of gratitude. Hahaha. Whatever it is, I have to choose. Okay, maybe the best of my life is when I graduated from my university, and got bachelor degree, S.Farm. To finish bachelor degree, I have to conduct an experiment, present the result to examiner lecturer (it called seminar), and pass comprehensive oral examination. It's not easy at all. For several months, I become a researcher, real scientist, where I have to choose topic, design experiment, even design the tools to support my research. At that point, I know that struggle does really exist. Hahaha. Trial-and-error-literally. I failed several times, figuring out what was wrong, modified, then tried again. Til it really worked!!!! Okay, you can read my struggle in other post.  CERITA "INDAHNYA" TUGAS AKHIR I  and  SEMINAR, AKHIR CERITA TUGAS...

Can we skip this day? Just kidding haha. Today's challenge is: "Describe 'the good, the bad, and the ugly' of yourself". Why the topic is so general? I mean the scope, please. It is supposed to be my behavior related to other people? Ok, let's just assume it. THE GOOD : I'm interested in human. Human is never stop amazing me. Their mind, their behavior are so adorable, even their uggliest part of them. So, it will always be a pleasure to me when I have to talking to them, face to face. I  will be ready to listening your story, patiently, and passionately. Tell me about evertyhing. Tell me about your beautiful mind. Tell me about your problem. I wish I could help you, as long as you're ready to be helped. I love developing and motivating other too. I became a mentor for several people unofficially, watched them grow, from isolated man to be good leader, from troubled person, be more social, or just tried to quit from addiction. So, if you hav...

"Recommend a book for us to read. Why is it important?" Waa I love reading book so much. Unluckily, I can only recommend a book for you. Ok, what i'm thinking in my mind now, it will be "The Little Prince". Why? Idk, I love this novel so much, so deep, anyway. It teach me many things about adulthood, something that I'm not ready yet, though I'm 24 y.o. I almost cried when I read this book. If you're young adult and struggle with this life transition, I suggest you to read it.

"What's something you've always wanted to do, but haven't? Why not?" Many, many things. But, I'll choose 2 of them. First, I've always wanted to climb a mountain, since I read novel '5cm', maybe when I was 17 y.o. But I wouldn't do it bcs of my backbone. Second, I wanted to study neuroscience formally, whether master or doctoral. Why not? Cos I trapped here, in pharmacy. Long story, i'm too lazy to tell it. Haha. But, one day I hope I will. Doctoral, maybe? Idk when.

Still have a problem with routinity. But, I wanna go on. "If you could have a dinner with any five people, who would they be?" First, I assume that I could be with anyone, even who has passed away, or fictional character. So, I would really happy if I could have a dinner with my parents. The third seat will be my crush since I'm 17 yrs old. The physicist guy whom I never met since 6 yrs ago. The next seat will be given to my idol. I will keep it secret too. He's someone whom I adore so much. He's really introverted, I barely know deeper side of him, and I hope he would reveal himself deeper on the dinner. The last, actually I confuse, but I would like to invite Sherlock Holmes. I'll choose rectangle table, with formation 1-2-1-2. The seat arrangement would be respectively: my idol - my mom and I - my dad - my crush and Sherlock Holmes - my idol. After having a dinner, I hope that they will stay for a night, so we can chat til morning. Hehehe.

To be honest, my autobiographical memory is pretty bad. So, you have to appreciate my effort to remember it. Lol. Okay, here what's the left, the happy one, which I still remember. 1. Picked up by parents and taken to their work place. I played there with my brother who a year older than me. 2. Mudik to my grandma's house in gresik (8 hr by car). There, I played in tambak (a field filled by saltwater to raise saltwater fish) 3. Played with my brother and cousins during vacation (tamiya, bleybade, physical activities like hide and seek, played in rice field, benteng takeshi, etc) 4. Wake up early every sunday to watch cartoon along the day, sometimes I fought with my brother if we wanted to watch different channel. 5. TPA (kind of Islamic shool at 3-5 pm), went to TPA at certain days and played with my neighborhood's friends. 6. Went to comic rental and borrowed several comics, my fav: detective conan, cerita hantu di sekolah, doraemon, gober, kobo chan) Wond...

As long as I remember, I never felt deeply attached to thing, so I don't know how to answer today's challenge, moreover clothes, because I don't pay attention to what I wear. So, inatead of it, I will tell you my fav chlotes. They are my grey pants, so comfortable to me. (Kind of in that pic).

Almost forgot. 30 minutes to day 3. I'm sorry haha. Let's just start! 1. KISS MY DAD'S HAND AND CHEEK 2. Death of dad a year ago. 2. Phone calling every dawn with him. 3. Opening pandora box five years ago. 4.  Winning something and got a trophy. 5. Sensation of waking up after surgery. 6. Running without fear of my condition. 7. Addiction to something which is prohibited.

I got a challenge, from my friend, Nadia Astriani. For day 1, I should write 15 fun facts about me. FUN? To be honest, I'm not a funny person. So, don't expect too much from me hahaha. 1. Natural Nocturnal . Nggak ngerti sih sebenarnya, what happen with me. Jadi, pada pagi hari saya selalu merasa lesu dan mengantuk. Tapi jam 7 ke atas, saya alert, detak jantung meningkat, sweating, jadi ingin melakukan hal-hal yang tidak ingin dilakukan di pagi hari. Bahkan seringkali insomnia. I prepare to go bed early (10 p.m), but keep awake till 1-2 am. Dan, tapi, efeknya, bangun jam 8-9 pagi (dengan solat subuh dulu tentunya). 2. Jarang banget nangis. Sesedih apapun, hampir nggak bisa nangis. Even, ketika ayah meninggal, saya cuma nangis 15 menitan kali ya. Padahal kata ibu, dulu pas kecil saya super cengeng. Mungkin air matanya udah dihabisin pas kecil. Lacrimal gland nya udah seret wkwkwk. 3. Hobi stalking orang. Siapapun, tak peduli gender, dan umur, bahkan orang ya...